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10/24/09

Recorded Screams From Hell!




I found the following articles very interesting.
 Without Jesus the threat of an eternity in Hell is real so check it out.

I linked the recorded sounds above if you want to hear!

These details are from the translation of an article in a Finnish newspaper named 'Ammennusatia'.

A geological group who drilled a hole about 14.4 kilometers deep in the crust of the earth are saying that they heard human screams. Screams have been heard from the condemned souls from earth's deepest hole. Terrified scientists are afraid they have let loose the evil powers of hell up to the earth's surface.

'The information we are gathering is so surprising, that we are sincerely afraid of what we might find down there,' stated Dr Azzacov, the manager of the project in remote Siberia.

'The second surprise was the high temperature they discovered in the earth's center. 'The calculations indicate the given temperature was about 1,100 degrees Celsius, or over 2,000 degrees Fahrenheit,' Azzacov pointed out. 'This is far more then we expected. It seems almost like an inferno of fire is brutally going on in the center of the earth.

'The last discovery was nevertheless the most shocking to our ears, so much so that the scientists are afraid to continue the project. We tried to listen to the earth's movements at certain intervals with super sensitive microphones, which were let down through the hole.
The drill suddenly began to rotate wildly, indicating that we had reached a large empty pocket or cavern. Temperature sensors showed a dramatic increase in heat to 2,000 degrees Fahrenheit."

 "We lowered a microphone, designed to detect the sounds of plate movements down the shaft. But instead of plate movements we heard a human voice screaming in pain! At first we thought the sound was coming from our own equipment."

"But when we made adjustments our worst suspicions were confirmed. The screams weren’t those of a single human, they were the screams of millions of humans!
What we heard turned those logically thinking scientists into a trembling ruins. It was a sometimes a weak, but high pitched sound which we thought to be coming from our own equipment,' explained Dr Azzacov.

'But after the adjustments we comprehended that indeed the sound came from the earth's interior. We could hardly believe our own ears. We heard a human voice, screaming in pain. Even though one voice was discernible, we could hear thousands, perhaps millions, in the background, of suffering souls screaming. After this ghastly discovery, about half of the scientists quit because of fear. Hopefully, that which is down there will stay there,' Dr Azzacov added.

'What really unnerved the Soviets, apart from the voice recordings, was the appearance that same night of a fountainhead of luminous gas shooting up from the drill site, and out of the midst of this incandescent cloud pillar a brilliant being with bat wings revealed itself with the words (in Russian): 'I have conquered,' emblazoned against the dark Siberian sky.

'The incident was absolutely unreal; the Soviets cried out in terror,' says Mr. Nummedal. Later that night, he saw ambulance crews circulating in the community. A driver he knew told him that they had been told to sedate everybody with a medication known to erase short term memory. The Soviets use this drug in the treatment of shock victims.


Another case of Inferno screaming sounds story: the famous sea diver and underwater explorer Jacques Cousteau stopped from scuba diving after hearing a sounds of human screaming on one of underwater caves he was exploring. Also one of Jacques-Cousteau’s men heard a frightening sounds of screams of human deep in trench of Bermuda Triangle.

The earth’s crust on land is normally 50 miles thick. You’d have to go down 50 miles before the edge of the fire. But in parts of the ocean floor, the earth’s crust is less than a mile thick.

Scientists recently discovered cracks on the ocean floor where fire was leaking out. Do you know what they found around these fire-breathing vents in the crust? Riftia, giant tube WORMS. Measuring up to 8 feet in length, the worms are ONLY FOUND NEAR DEEP SEA VENTS."



And Jesus Christ said, "Where their WORMS dieth not, and the fire is not quenched"

~I always want Biblical proof  so here are some verses that I found about  
 Hell being inside the earth:

When Jesus Christ died on the cross, He descended into hell.
In Acts 2, Peter is speaking, verse 31, " . . . seeing this before spake of the resurrection of Christ, that his soul was not left in Hell"

And in Matthew 12:40, Jesus Christ says:

"For as Jonas was three days and three nights in the whale's belly: so shall the Son of man be three days and three nights in the HEART OF THE EARTH. "
Ephesians 4:9, says of Jesus: "Now that he ascended, what is it but that he also descended first into the LOWER PARTS OF THE EARTH."

Revelation 14:10 says, " . . . and he shall be tormented with fire and BRIMSTONE . . ." And Job 18 describes the " . . . PLACE of him that knoweth not God" (vs 21), in verse 15 as, " . . . BRIMSTONE shall be scattered upon his habitation." Do you know what brimstone is? It's sulfur. And do you know where sulfur or brimstone is found? INSIDE THIS EARTH.

The Bible describes it as weeping (Matt 8:12), wailing (Matt 13:42), gnashing of teeth (Matt 13:50), darkness (Matt 25:30), flames (Luke 16:24), burning (Isa 33:14), torments (Luke 16:23), everlasting punishment! Jesus Christ says in Matthew 25:41, "Depart from me, ye cursed, into EVERLASTING FIRE, prepared for the devil and his angels."





I didn't post this to scare you because I know that if Jesus is your Lord and savior you are not ruled by satan or by fear.
If not and you want to get to know Jesus, let me give you some Biblical FACTS for the start of your new life:


  • You must realize you are a sinner.








    "As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:" Romans 3:10


    "... for there is no difference. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;" Romans 3:23








  • Realize you CAN NOT save yourself.






    "But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousness are as filthy rags; ..." Isaiah 64:6


    "Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, ..." Titus 3:5









  • Realize that Jesus Christ died on the cross to pay for your sins.






    "Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, ..." 1 Peter 2:24


    "... Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood," Revelation 1:5









  • Simply by faith receive Jesus Christ as your personal Savior.






    "But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:" John 1:12


    " ...Sirs, what must I do to be saved? And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house."" Acts 16:30,31


    "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16






    IF YOU WOULD YOU LIKE TO ACCEPT JESUS

Pray to Him.

Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and unless you save me I am lost forever. I thank you for dying for me on the cross. I want you to come into my heart as my Lord. I now receive you as my Savior. In Jesus Christ Name, Amen.

10/20/09

Cheesy Pumpkins



Ingredients 
  • 8 tablespoons smoked Cheddar cold pack cheese food (from 8-oz container), well chilled
  • 2 teaspoons finely chopped peanuts (since we have peanut allergies in our family wil probably use walnuts, almonds or pecans)
  • 4 butter-flavored pretzel spindles or sticks, broken in half
  • 16 tiny pieces fresh parsley leaves

Directions 

  1. Line small serving plate with waxed paper. Roll each level tablespoon cold pack cheese food into a ball; place on waxed paper-lined serving plate. Refrigerate 10 to 15 minutes for easier handling.
  2. With end of toothpick, draw ridges around balls to resemble pumpkins. Dip bottoms of cheese balls in chopped peanuts.
  3. Just before serving, insert pretzel halves into cheese balls for pumpkin stems. Decorate with parsley for leaves. Store in refrigerator.
  4. Make the Most of This Recipe How-To
  5. Turn the pumpkin making into a family affair! Have one person roll the cheese into balls and another shape the balls into pumpkins, while someone else can dip the pumpkins in peanuts and insert the pretzel. It's easy to double the recipe, so make as many as you'd like!
  6. Did You Know?
  7. The texture or firmness of cold pack cheese food can vary from brand to brand. Buy two brands, use the firmer one for pumpkins and snack on the softer one while making them!
  8. Nutrition Information:
  9. 1 Pumpkin: Calories 60 (Calories from Fat 35); Total Fat 4g (Saturated Fat 2g, Trans Fat 0g); Cholesterol 15mg; Sodium 270mg; Total Carbohydrate 3g (Dietary Fiber 0g, Sugars 2g); Protein 3g Percent Daily Value*: Vitamin A 4%; Vitamin C 0%; Calcium 8%; Iron 0% Exchanges: 0 Other Carbohydrate; 0 Vegetable; 1/2 High-Fat Meat Carbohydrate Choices: 0
  10. *Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet.

10/18/09

My In-Laws House

My in-laws took me and my sis-in-law to see the house that they are set to close on in November.  This sweet little woman's selling because she's an 84 year old  widow in need of a smaller home.   Her house is perfect for my in-laws!  It  is pretty big at around 2080 sq. ft. with a big back yard that has many different kinds of  fruit trees.  The cool thing about that is before my in-laws left Venezuela to come here they received a word that they would get a beautiful house in which Miok would be in the back yard picking fruit and berries.  Jerry & Miok (my in-laws) came here from Venezuela, which was their most recent home as missionaries for over 25 years, to start a church here.  They have started over 40 churches and this will be the first one that God has called them to start near us.  It's going to be an English/Spanish speaking Church here in Mobile, Alabama.  We're all so excited!

Well, as we're walking through this woman's home I started noticing these beautiful paintings all over her house.  Some were of ocean views and landscapes and others of a place she said she goes to camp at.  She had a whole sewing room set up in her house and some crochet as well.  There was a shelf with hand carved birds cut out of it and ton of personal writings and family pictures.  Not to mention her yard had an array of different trees and different plants.  I got to peek into this woman's life of 84 years.  She was extremely talented and very spunky for her age.  I complemented some of her art and asked how long she had been doing it.  She told me about 9 years.  I was astonished, I told her it looked like she had been doing it her whole life.  She just looked at me and smiled as she said I just decided to try it.  She gave me some amazing advice that it took her many years to learn.  She told me to try everything that you think you might ever want to try.
Before we left this sweet little woman told us of some of the places she had traveled and some of the heart aches she had endured.  She had definatelly lived life and seemed to have done it well.  I'm sure that is the exact thing that God wants us to do while where here.  Try everything that he gives us the will to- without fear or questioning.  In order to live this gift of life from Him- for Him- and to do it well.  This life is too short to do things only half way.  We grow throughout our lives just like those fruit trees in that sweet little womans yard, but it's up to us to produce fruit.  What greater purpose is there than to produce that fruit as people in Gods kingdom?

10/13/09

Lightning


I have come across a cool verse that mentions lightening.
Luke 17:24  says, For like the lightning, that flashes and lights up the sky from one end to the other, so will the Son of Man be in His own day.
Check out the video on my profile- It powerfully explains this verse.
This interested me because of all the rain, thunder, and lightening that we've been having in Mobile lately.  My kids get so scared at the loud booming that I dug a little deeper into this to find some storied from the Bible that I could share with them during the next scary thunder storm to comfort them.  My kids (like most kids I'm sure) love stories, what better way to take their minds off of something that scares them while filling their heads with pure good.  Well surprising to me, I found a total of 41 verses that mentioned it.  I won't go into all 41, however I will point out some of my favorites that go along with this.
First I will share 2Ti 1:7 for times when we are faced with fear, because it confirms that fear is not of God.  It says,  For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of self-control.
Exodus 15:2  says, The Lord is my strength and my strong helper, he has become my salvation: he is my God and I will give him praise; my father's God and I will give him glory.
That verse confirms that we should turn to God for strength because he will help us even in times of fear.
These next couple of verses are pretty cool:

Job 28:26  and when he decided the path for rain and lightning,
Job 28:27  he also determined the truth and defined wisdom.
Job 28:28  God told us, "Wisdom means that you respect me, the Lord, and turn from sin."

Job 36:27  God gathers moisture into the clouds
Job 36:28  and supplies us with rain.
Job 36:29  Who can understand how God scatters the clouds and speaks from his home in the thunderstorm?
Job 36:30  And when God sends lightning, it can be seen at the bottom of the sea.
Job 36:31  By producing such rainstorms, God rules the world and provides us with food.
Job 36:32  Each flash of lightning is one of his arrows striking its target,
Job 36:33  and the thunder tells of his anger against sin.

Job 37:2  when I hear the roaring voice of God in the thunder,
Job 37:3  and when I see his lightning flash across the sky.
Job 37:4  God's majestic voice thunders his commands,
Job 37:5  creating miracles too marvelous for us to understand.
Job 37:6  Snow and heavy rainstorms
Job 37:7  make us stop and think about God's power,
Job 37:8  and they force animals to seek shelter.
Job 37:9  The windstorms of winter strike,
Job 37:10  and the breath of God freezes streams and rivers.
Job 37:11  Rain clouds filled with lightning appear at God's command,
Job 37:12  traveling across the sky
Job 37:13  to release their cargo-- sometimes as punishment for sin, sometimes as kindness.
Job 37:14  Job, consider carefully the many wonders of God.
Job 37:15  Can you explain why lightning flashes at the orders
Job 37:16  of God who knows all things? Or how he hangs the clouds in empty space?
Job 37:17  You almost melt in the heat of fierce desert winds when the sky is like brass.
Job 37:18  God can spread out the clouds to get relief from the heat, but can you?
Job 37:19  Tell us what to say to God! Our minds are in the dark, and we don't know how to argue our case.
Job 37:20  Should I risk my life by telling God that I want to speak?
Job 37:21  No one can stare at the sun after a breeze has blown the clouds from the sky.
Job 37:22  Yet the glorious splendor of God All-Powerful is brighter by far.
Job 37:23  God cannot be seen-- but his power is great, and he is always fair.
Job 37:24  And so we humans fear God, because he shows no respect for those who are proud and think       they know so much.
Those verses are humbling and show that we should never be self righteous, hypocritical, or judgment.
Mar 12:31  The second most important commandment says: 'Love others as much as you love yourself.' No other commandment is more important than these."

Psalms 29:7  The voice of the LORD makes lightning flash

Psalms 135:5  The LORD is much greater than any other god.
Psalms 135:6  He does as he chooses in heaven and on earth and deep in the sea.
Psalms 135:7  The LORD makes the clouds rise from far across the earth, and he makes lightning to go with the rain. Then from his secret place he sends out the wind.
 
Rev 12:7  A war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels were fighting against the dragon and its angels.
Rev 12:8  But the dragon lost the battle. It and its angels were forced out of their places in heaven
Rev 12:9  and were thrown down to the earth. Yes, that old snake and his angels were thrown out of heaven! That snake, who fools everyone on earth, is known as the devil and Satan.

Luke 10:18  Jesus told them: I saw Satan fall from heaven like a flash of lightning.
It is clear that God has control over lightening- and Satan.
Luke 10:19  I have given you the power to trample on snakes and scorpions and to defeat the power of your enemy Satan. Nothing can harm you.
We have that power through God as well!  Praise God!

Homemade Laundry Stain Removers

Recipe #1
1 cup hot water
1/2 cup baking soda
1/2 cup hydrogen peroxide
Directions:
Mix ingredients then store in spray bottles. Spot treat stains then soak overnight.


Recipe #2
2 quarts water
1/2 cup ammonia
2 TBS laundry detergent
Directions:
Mix ingredients then store in spray bottles. Spot treat stains then soak overnight.
Do not use with bleach.


A good pretreater:

Save pieces and leftover slivers of bar soaps and collect in a jar. Those little hotel soaps are ideal for this too (cut them down to small pieces).
When jar is filled half way with soap chunks, add boiling water. Mix soap bits and water until soap is melted.
Once cooled this will make a soap jelly. Use to pretreat laundry.
*Handy to gob onto stained items and toss back into the dirty laundry bag for pieces that you can’t wash right away.
Quick Tip: I’ve also used just straight liquid dish detergent successfully. Squirt a bit onto stain, rub in gently with your fingers, and then toss the garment in the laundry pile to be washed later. This is an especially easy one since you can apply the soap as soon as you notice the stain and leave the garment sit until laundry day.



10/11/09

Wave Of Light

WAVE OF LIGHT

1st Annual Awareness Vigil for Pregnancy and Infant Loss

October 15, 2009 from 6:30pm to 8:30pm
USS ALABAMA Battleship Memorial Park

Birth Stories and More of Mobile is joining with the Global organization, Wave of Light, to sponsor a candlelight vigil for all families who have ever experienced a miscarriage, pregnancy or infant loss. Bring a candle to participate in the Wave of Light which has the goal of having candles lit around the world on October 15 in memory of those losses.
President Ronald Regan declared October as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month in 1988. Families who have experienced pregnancy or infant loss rarely get the opportunity to express or process their grief in a healthy and safe way with others who have experienced the same loss. This Remembrance Day allows everyone to both mourn and celebrate their short lives.
We will have a remembrance banner to add names and dates, an informal and on-going candlelight vigil, silent auction and loss awareness ribbons for purchase.

Contact birthstoriesandmore@gmail.com
Info at: PregnancyandInfantLoss.org under October Awareness Activities
Visit us on Facebook under Birth Stories and More.

10/10/09

Homemade Fabric Softener


"I've been using homemade fabric softener in the washer for several months now. It works in the dryer and even for the clothes hung on the line.


The key ingredients in homemade fabric softener are simple household objects: baking soda, water, and (you guessed it) vinegar. All you have to do is take is two cups of white vinegar and two cups of baking soda. Slowly stir these into four cups of water.
(Remember when you made those "volcanoes" in first grade and the volcano "erupted" when you poured vinegar into the top? That's what happens when you mix your own fabric softener so make sure you mix it in the sink in case it overflows.)
When you're finished making the softener, store it in a plastic bottle. When you need it for doing your laundry, just shake up the solution a bit and add to the laundry load and continue as usual. You can also try adding half a cup of white vinegar or one-quarter cup of baking soda to the last rinse to increase the fabric softener effect.
To add a smell you like you can use a couple of drops of essential oils.&; They are sold at the flea market.

Another way to make it is:

1 bottle of hair conditioner (CHEAP.......don't remember the brand I used but it
was $.79 and lilac scented)
2 cups white vinegar

6 cups water
Mix in a gallon jug. I transfer it to a used softener bottle, then use that cap
as a measure for the amount to use."

10/9/09

How To Make Your Own Laundry Detergent


Here’s what you need:
- 1 bar of soap (whatever kind you like; I used Lever 2000 because we have tons of bars of it from a case we bought a while back)
- 1 box of washing soda (look for it in the laundry detergent aisle at your local department store - it comes in an Arm & Hammer box and will contain enough for six batches of this stuff)
- 1 box of borax- this is not necessary, but I’ve found it really kicks the cleaning up a notch - one box of borax will contain more than enough for tons of batches of this homemade detergent - if you decide to use this, be careful.
- A five gallon bucket with a lid (or a bucket that will hold more than 15 liters - ask around - these aren’t too tough to acquire)
- Three gallons of tap water
- A big spoon to stir the mixture with
- A measuring cup
- A knife

Step One: Put about four cups of water into a pan on your stove and turn the heat up on high until it’s almost boiling. While you’re waiting, whip out a knife and start shaving strips off of the bar of soap into the water, whittling it down. Keep the heat below a boil and keep shaving the soap. Eventually, you’ll shave up the whole bar, and then stir the hot water until the soap is dissolved and you have some highly soapy water.

Step Two: Put three gallons of hot water (11 liters or so) into the five gallon bucket - the easiest way is to fill up three gallon milk jugs worth of it. Then mix in the hot soapy water from step one, stir it for a while, and then add a cup of the washing soda. Keep stirring it for another minute or two, and then add a half cup of borax if you are using borax. Stir for another couple of minutes, then let the stuff sit overnight to cool. And you’re done. When you wake up in the morning, you’ll have a bucket of gelatinous slime that’s a paler shade of the soap that you used. One measuring cup full of this slime will be roughly what you need to do a load of laundry.
The ingredients are basically the same as laundry detergent. Thus, out of three gallons, you’ll get about 48 loads of laundry. If you do this six times, you’ll have used six bars of soap ($0.99 each), one box of washing soda ($2.49 at our store), and about half a box of borax ($2.49 at our store, so $1.25) and make 288 loads of laundry. This comes up to a cost of right around three cents a gallon, or a savings of $70

For those of you who are unable to find Washing Soda:

You can heat baking soda to convert it to baking soda.  It must be heated above 140*, though the higher the temperature the faster the conversion. You need to preheat the oven to 400F and it's about two hours. Just spread it thin on a Pyrex baking dish.

Sick Kid At 3 A.M.


Well, Last night was not so fun.  My youngest son Conner, apparently climed into bed with me & my husband at 3 A.M. only to puke on us.  Nice way to wake up right!  Well after cleaning all of us up and changing the sheets he did a replay of that about 1 hour later.  This time I did the smart thing and made a pallet right beside our bed on our wood floor, which is much easier to clean up, with a through-up bucket right beside him.  Of course this time he was totally fine and didn't get sick again.  Wish I would have done that in the 1st place.  So this blog is for all mothers of kids that could get sick out of no where this seson.

Ways To Somewhat Be Prepared:
1)  Always sleep your sick child in your room with you so that there is no chance he can drown in his own     through-up. ( Really could happen)
2)  Don't let them clime into bed with you- make a pallet on the floor instead.
3)  Have a through-up bucket and some tissues near them.
4)  Avoid kisses and hugs during this time-  you will become the puke target otherwise! (Just teach them to blow you kisses)
5)  Some kids think Pepto-bismol taste like candy.  Hide the bottle after administering to your child or they may try to drink the whole thing.
6)  Make sure you hide the bottle when their not watching you.  Kids can somehow find their way into anything!

10/8/09

Walk For Life


This year is the 2nd annual Walk For Life.  It is happening on October 17, 2009 at 9:00a.m.  There are 2 locations that are hosting it- The Hank Aaron Stadium, and The University Of Mobile.  The walk will be about 2 miles.  If for some reason you can't make it you can walk, skate, swim, ride, run.... or pretty much anything you want to do for 2 miles to support the cause.  If you are interested in donating just go to the site listed for contact information.
www.savalifemobile.org

Cake Pops



What you need

1 batch Dark Chocolate Cake
8 ounces cream cheese, softened
2 cups confectioner's sugar
4 tablespoons butter
1 tablespoon milk (or more, as necessary)
Bake the cake and let it cool completely on a rack. This is a very moist cake, which is ideal for this recipe. It's best to let it cool overnight at least. When it is completely cool, break the cake into a large bowl. Crumble it with forks or your fingers until it is in fine crumbs.
In a separate bowl, whip the cream cheese, butter, powdered sugar, and milk together until smooth. Pour into the cake crumbs and mix with a spoon. Then continue mixing with your fingers, kneading and mixing until fully incorporated into the cake. Check to see if it will roll into a ball. It should: this makes a very malleable, easy-to-handle cake mixture. But if it needs a little extra moisture, add milk a spoonful at a time.
When the mix is completely done, cover with plastic wrap and refrigerate until firm. You can leave the mix refrigerated for several days at this point. I left mine in the fridge for about three days before making the balls. You could probably also freeze this.

Making Cake Pops

What you need
Lollipop sticks
12 ounces chocolate chips
12 ounces white chocolate bark
Edible wax, optional
Colored sugars, candies, and other decorative sprinkles

How to make the balls
Prepare two large baking sheets by covering with wax paper or parchment. Take a bit of the cake mixture and roll it into a smooth ball. If you want to use the lollipop sticks, stick one into the end of each ball, pointing upward, as you put the ball back down on the sheet. [Note: I cut the long lollipop sticks in half; they seemed a little long for the size of the balls.] Repeat until you've used up all the mixture. As each sheet fills up, put it in the freezer so that the balls harden.

How to decorate the cake pops
Melt chocolate or white chocolate in a double boiler on the stove. If you want to make the coating a little more resistant to melting, add a small square of wax to the pot and let it melt too. Stir well. Dip each ball into the chocolate until covered.
Dip in sugar, coconut, sprinkles, or anything else you'd like to decorate with. Put it back on the sheet to harden.
Don't refrigerate these; it will cause the coating to weep or melt. They can be frozen, however.

10/6/09

Rom 8:1 Therefore, now there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, who live and walk not after the dictates of the flesh, but after the dictates of the Spirit.


Something that I have come to realize is that God truely has purposes for our lives that are greater than we could ever imagine.  If we just walk in his will and not our own we can allow God to guide us down the right paths.  Then we'll easily be able to fulfill his purpose for our lives.  However, I know that all of us mess up every once in a while.  (Well OK, maybe more than every once in a while.)  But thankfully God knows our hearts and his grace can cover our mess ups.  He can use all things for good even though their are times that we can't begin to conceive how.  When our would is crashing down on us and we don't know what to do.  God is our answer- he can give us peace if we trust in him.  If you turn to him and pray, it really helps.  Prayer is our open door directly to God.  We can tell him everything that is on our mind (because he already knows).  He can be the one to confide in and our shoulder to cry on.  If you don't have that intimate- personal relationship with God and that inner peace sounds good to you.  All that you have to do is believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross and was raised from the dead to pay for your sins.  If you truely believe that, then you can ask him into your heart through prayer.  
Tell him that you know your a sinner and that you know that has separated you from him.  Tell him that you want a close and personal relationship with him so that he can be the Lord of your life to guide you down the right paths.  Ask him to forgive you of your sins (because we're all sinners, no matter how good of a person we are) and to come into your heart.  Amen. 

If you said that prayer to God and truely meant it then congratulations!  Now hang on and get ready for the only real ride of your life.  Start by telling others that you got saved.  Then find a good church with sound Biblical doctrine to attend.   Do your homework, and read your Bible, that is how you grow your knowledge of Christ.  And Congrats again, you now have everlasting life! 
Your sister in Christ, 
Shelly